Day 18: Rejoicing in God

I have given up all forms of devotion and set prayers except those required by my role. My only task is to persist in His holy presence, maintaining it through simple mindfulness, and a general affectionate attention to God, which I may call an actual presence of God.

Or, to put it better, it's a habitual, silent, and private communion of the soul with God, which often fills me with inner joys and ecstatic experiences, and sometimes even outward ones, so intense that I have to take measures to temper them and prevent them from being noticeable to others.

In short, I am convinced that my soul has been with God for over thirty years. I skip over many details to not tire you, yet I think it's appropriate to tell you how I see myself before God, whom I view as my King.